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First Moments at Southern Seminary 2013

Originally in my August 14th, 2013 Journal

First moments at Southern Seminary [where we stayed for a year & I got my MDiv]

Now we’re in our new apartment (Springdale Apartment, #623) at Southern Baptist Theological Seminary (SBTS) in Louisville, KY. We drove all day yesterday (14.5 hrs) to get here. Getting out of OKC it was pouring rain, but after that we had mostly clear weather. We got here at 9:30 pm EST. We got our key & met our good friend from China, who was waiting for us with all the furniture he’d gathered for us in the U-Haul. He & I moved the furniture (bed, kitchen, table, sofa, leather chair) into our 2nd floor apartment. We finished around 11 pm local time. It was an exhausting day, but the Lord carried us through it. We’re excited to be in our new home.

Birth of New Missions Organization in NW China

Originally in my July 6th, 2011 Journal

Birth of new missions organization in NW China

Our two families were in prayer together. We looked at the big China map on the wall. We put paper (yellow, blue, & red) on the cities [our organization] wants to focus on: 1) Yellow [Shaanxi (Xi’an, Weinan, Hanzhong, Ankang, Baoji)],; 2) Blue [Gansu (LinXia, Lanzhou, Tianshui, Zhangye, Dunhuang, PingLiang, Wuwei, JiuQuan, JaiYuGuan)]; 3) Red [Other NW China Cities (Xining, Yinchuan, Turpan, Urumqi, Aksu, Hotan, Korla, Kashgar)].

We prayed for these specific regions & cities & for the Lord to prepare the way for us to send Workers there.

Urgency of Gospel

Originally in my July 30th, 2007 Journal [summer after 2nd year in China]

I was with God: listening to Piper sermon, singing praises, prayer, memorizing verses, writing, listening to Andrew Murray’s Ministry of Intercession. I’ve been really getting lots of satisfaction in God’s presence. The Spirit is teaching me some good stuff.

Our first priority is to preach the gospel. If I truly believe that people around me are going to hell if they don’t believe in Christ as Savior, how am I loving them by not telling them how to be saved? I know it’s disruptive at this school & it disrupts the peace here. But just because millions of people in China are content with their lives, does not mean that they’re NOT going to hell. They’re still going to hell whether they know it or not.

Chinese Students Bold in Evangelism

Originally in my March 12th, 2007 Journal [my 2nd year teaching at a univ. in eastern China]

This afternoon, a few students came over. We prayed together & gave them Bibles & then they headed out to the Education College [another university across the city]. They returned two hours later & again we met & prayed. They shared stories about the people they had talked to & given Bibles to. Good stuff.

Praying about Life after College Graduation

Originally in my February 2nd, 2004 Journal [my junior year of college]

Thursday night I went to Bible study, & I was able to stray Mike off the beaten path & ask him some questions about free will. He had very good answers. He said that God naturally made us to follow our emotions & mind, leading us to our decisions, making it our will. On the other hand, God has still predestined the saved souls. He plants the seed in their heart that makes them come to Jesus (Holy Spirit, if you will). He doesn’t choose everyone to receive this movement towards Jesus. So, our day to day decisions are our own. We can follow a path that is not God’s will. We are not the deciding factor for others’ salvation. Out of our love & excitement for Jesus we should spread the gospel. That is still our calling.

From all this I have had a major re-evaluation of what I want to do with my life. A life of service to Jesus is a life I could never regret. It begins now. Each decision I make should be targeted towards glorifying God. I’ve been researching some summer missions options. Spending my summer doing missions would be worse professionally than interning in Philly, but do I really want to spend my life doing engineering? The decision begins now. I pray for God to open & close doors in a way that his will for me may be fulfilled.

Trip to Xinjiang

Originally in my January 14th, 2010 Journal [on scout trip to Xinjiang Province]

In Urumqi, there are missionaries learning Chinese & focusing on the Han. And there’s others who learn Uyghur & focus on the Uyghur. I question this approach, to totally separate the ministry into two groups. Those focusing on the Han can’t speak Uyghur & those focusing on Uyghur can’t speak Chinese. It seems that, if what some missionaries say is right in saying the Han will be used to best reach the Uyghur & the Chinese pastor’s testimony in Kashgar can attest to that fact, missions organizations would be better to combine the ministries in Urumqi, training workers to speak both Chinese & Uyghur & to be able to actively work with the Han in order to reach the Uyghur. It would be critical that these people speak both languages fluently. Separating the ministry into two distinct parts has way too many limitations.

Lord Changing Hearts in Chinese University

Originally in my January 6th, 2008 Journal [ministering in university in E. China]

There has been a confession of faith! Apparently, two days ago Edward (also from class 3) told Jairy that he became a believer. Yesterday he told Eric. This all followed his 6 hour conversation about the Lord with their lexicology teacher Andrew (a Chinese professor). What a huge blessing Andrew has been! So a guy student has given a confession of faith at the school. We’ll see what happens next. Needs lots of prayer. Also I met with Jordan. He said he feels God pulling him towards Him. He said he just needs more time. I said there are many examples in the Bible where people immediately believe & are transformed (like Paul). I said I know many people who say they’ll wait until they have a family to do the “Christian thing”. Obviously this attitude is wrong. I said “What if they die tomorrow?” They’d go to Hell because they’d have no faith. That got him thinking a lot. He needs immediate prayer. May he be hugely convicted of his lostness. I feel like he’s close, but we can’t relax until he’s turned to the Lord! I also met with Newmoon & she took Pilgrim’s Progress from me to read for the break. May the Lord convict her in a huge way through Bunyan or the Word or some other source. Great things happening with that class of students!

Working Hard for Christ in School or in Work

Originally in my December 13th, 2004 Journal [age 22, senior year studying engineering at Oklahoma St. Univ.]

The main lesson I learned this semester is in regards to labor. Many Christians equate their religion with not worrying, & and thus, not working hard. This was my state last semester & early this semester. I learned that no one will respect anything I say if I don’t do my best at everything I do. Then I am a poor witness. Jesus must be reflected in every aspect of my life. Were Jesus or Paul slackers because they had a ‘carefree attitude’, not concerned with the worries of this world? Heck no! If anything, they worked harder than others in everything they did. It has been a huge lesson for me this semester & I am incredibly thankful.

My First Thanksgiving Day in China

Originally in my November 25th, 2005 Journal [age 23, ministering in eastern China]

It’s the day after Thanksgiving. I have many things to be thankful for. One, at our party last night, Sanya mentioned the praises & thanks in Psalms. Then she pulled out a big Bible that John had given her in May. She said it’s a great book. I’m really excited because the gate has definitely been opened to approach her further about the Bible. Other things to be thankful for: a family who loves me; being in China & knowing all these great students; being in a place where the Lord can use me every day & I can see the fruits; great friends back home that love & support me; I thank the Lord for giving me my faith & continually strengthening it; for pulling me out of nothingness to live a life with Him. I have many many things for which to be thankful. What an amazing dinner last night. How blessed I am to be here to experience these things & this love that I feel from all the students. How blessed. How could I ever leave this place?

 I think at this point it would be impossible to not come back next year. I can’t think of one reason not to. God is doing too much here. I couldn’t just leave that, at least not until I feel a pull to go elsewhere.

Time of Personal Spiritual Growth

Originally in my October 22nd, 2007 Journal [while ministering in eastern China]

In the afternoon I talked with one of the [visiting on short-term mission trip] Americans, Billy. He’s only about 35. He said that before he went into the ministry he had a 3-month period where he & his friend had no job & would just read the Scriptures together each day. He said that 3 months of preparation was huge for the next 10+ years of his ministry. This was further confirmation that I should be seizing all spare time this semester/year to be in the Word in some way. I shouldn’t be looking to be busy. This is a season of learning & preparation for future ministry.

[my prayer updates for that day]

Students to pray for this week: Emily, Sanya, Abigail, Jordan

*** I haven’t seen clear answers to last week’s prayers & I don’t know why I should expect anything, because my prayer life has been struggling. My mind gets so distracted after such a short time. I fall asleep. Lord, show me how to pray. I could split these things up & pray for them throughout the day rather than all at once.